And I can't complain when I'm going insane.
I can't complain when I've only got myself to blame. I dug this grave
then I climbed on down, I burned the ladder now there's no way out.
I let myself fall head over heels, then I let you blind me from what I feel.
It took all my strength just to climb out, now I look back and I have to shout
and slap myself because I let you control me, I let myself fall below thee.
But now I prouldy stand, embracing my insanity as I pull together what's left of me.
Yet still I can't complain when I'm going insane, I can't complain
because still I've only got myself to blame. I let my hopes get stacked up
high. I should have known I'd only die. Bits and pieces of me everywhere,
what made me think you'd make me whole again? I wanted you as more than a friend, but
I rushed so nothing would ever begin. Maybe it couldn've gone differently
but now I have got to move on with what's left of me.
And I can't complain when it all seems to fade away, I've got to
push myself through the next day. Memories mean so much to me, but all they bring is
pain sometimes it seems. I don't know if I want to laugh or cry, I don't know if I want to
smile or die. These painful recollections take hold of me, I drift away
leaving no vestige. I'm not quite here, but I'm not quite gone. I know this can't
last for long. Everytime I make myself believe I've found happiness I turn to
find it's just dissimulated bliss.
But I can't complain when I 'm going insane, I can't complain because afterall
I've only got me to blame. Lived all my life trying to be strong, never realizing
my fragility through it all. Now I stand on the edge of this cliff
staring deep into this abyss that I call my soul as I'm trying to find
a piece of me I can call mine. But each and every piece of me reminds me of someone
else. I have nothing that reminds me of myself. I can't tell if this is good or bad.
Tell me, should I be happy or sad? Seems I give so much without an once of gain, but I do it
all on my own so I can't complain when I'm going insane.
